Here's a new plot twist in my life...; Disability discrimination!?
Yesterday I was prescribed heart medication at 4mg. It's not much medication but what it means is I was putting my heart under stress from somewhere...yeah right...I knew exactly where it came from or should I say whom.
In Badimaya lore we believe in payback. While we may not always get the perpetrator to stand in front of our relatives we sure know that our ancestors will take up the true issuance for us.
In this case I think the person in question was greedy and wanted to see me suffer.
He wanted that because I was many things he hated just for being me.
They say it's better to go where you're celebrated and not just tolerated so that's what I did. I left the scene and not a moment too soon it seems.
I'm disabled with Lipoedema.
It's not a disease I can control very much.
It's commonly known as 'The Shaming Disease' and for good reason.
People are so conditioned to thinking that people who are large in extreme ways are over-eaters or they're lazy but with Lipoedema you cant change the growth of fat with fitness training or diet. All you can do is stop inflammation through massage & wraps and at best liposuction but in this continent it costs $22,000 to only remove 15 liters a year!
It's not covered as a chronic illness in most parts of the planet and there's no cure YET.
I'm having gastric sleeving in May 2016 in the hope it can reduce the amount of fat cells forming and to stop the amount of fat lipids in my blood at any given time.
All of this I explained to this disability Nazi but it just wasn't good enough.
At every opportunity he made it an issue.
I didn't listen of course but when he couldn't be honest about things he ended up blaming me in the guise of "care". What he was trying on for size was sympathy and that's a LOT different than empathy. Empathy means he'd actually DO something nice whereas he just shrugged his shoulders or started boasting to me about all the 'nice' things he did before...like he was keeping a list in his head about what I'd MADE him do by being disabled in the first place?!
I can think of a few well known 'disabled' artists who hardly NEVER had this kind of discrimination; Matisse, Renoir, Duchamp, Kahlo to name a few.
A great artist isn't 'famous' or a bon vivant in their own mind as PROOF they're an artist...
If they DO think that then I recon they're like Jeff Koons and every other poser 'artist' and money market fapper.
Sorry, I'm fully aware of my disability but that doesn't translate into my art or how I feel about myself being alive.
Side Note for this week;
Oh....and Yay for meta-modernism..If I read a bit more I guess I'd learn to like it as a mind set to stop racism because hey...post-modernism really was trying to absorb First Nation culture into it as something "already done before" but it just turned out looking like colonialism and cultural genocide of Badimaya people to me.
It was the main reason why I began painted a certain way because I really hated the racism of some post-modernist theory and the people stealing cultures for their own profit.
I actually paint to stop racism because I'm a product of the brainwashing that said
"white is right"...so my life is literally here as a direct result of racism & assimilation against my mother's people, my people, the Badimaya Nation.